You say the nicest things to me

Its been sort of lonley since ive been confined to my house. I dont see anyone other than the people i work with and lindsey, which is great! But i just wish some of my friends would drop by sometime. Im stuck here, in my little cage of a room. I dont like to call, i dont want to say "hey come over and we call all cram up into my little room and play videogames, or watch a stupid movie on my little tv" I hate that i cant go to shows, i guess im saving alot of money though, being in here... and i really need the money too :/

I wanna talk about my conversation because it made me feel so good, but it made me feel terrible as well!!! I think it made me feel worse than i already did about myself. Past exploits with people that make me sick, that have ruined things in my life, and they where apart of your life too? Not fair not fair at all. He doesnt even know it, at least i hope he doesnt... If he did know it, i bet you my life that he would try something, because he is a terrible person and that is just the sort of thing he would do, its the sort of thing he has done before. I want to talk about us, but its so fresh, so taboo, so great, i dont know what to think about it.

I think its going great.

"just say the word" holy crap thats so sweet!!